Marie-Noëlle Wurm
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Sketchbook Challenge #3 | Color Play
This is a part of sketchbook challenges I offer on patreon. For more challenges, join here: patreon.com/marienoellewurm
I made this one back in 2020 but thought it would be nice to share it with you today. :) Let me know in the comments how it went for you!
You can also join my skillshare classes over here: skl.sh/Marie-Noelle
Music by Epidemic Sound.
www.epidemicsound.com/referral/lln292/
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Відео

Start with Ugly Art ✨ Scribble warmup + draw summer cherries with me
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A bunch of you have requested another creativity exercise, similar to the Power of Ugly Art video I made a month ago, so here it is! A creativity exercise to feel loose and free, and this time working with a figurative elements (I chose cherries but you can choose something else!) If you want to join any of the live drawing sessions I host, join here on Patreon, I have a 7 day free trial option...
Paint along with me ✨ Unboxing + swatching the Holbein Irodori Spring gouache set
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Just sharing art materials that I love! :) ✨Holbein Irodori Spring Gouache set: bit.ly/springirodoriset (the affiliate link gives you 10% off your first order, and I receive a 5% commission in exchange-make sure you create an account for the rebate to activate). ✨ To join the Moonmoss Club: patreon.com/marienoellewurm for more videos like this, sketchbook tours and monthly live drawing sessions...
Sketchbook Tour #20 | All The Things | Jul-Dec 2021
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hiya! For the in-depth sketchbook tour, join Patreon here: www.patreon.com/posts/in-depth-tour-20-89632638 Tons of different kinds of art in this sketchbook: drawings of birds and characters and houses and a mini-Little Red Riding Hood story and explorations, and some ugly drawings, and some processing emotions drawings and you also get to see a photo of my ACTUAL doppelgänger from way back in ...
An Art Challenge with prizes ✨ Bring Spring 2024✨ And A Creativity Exercise to Get You Started
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It’s happening! We’re thrilled to announce the 5th Anniversary Edition of our magical Bring Spring Challenge, a time to celebrate the beauty of the season and the revival of our artistic talents…and to win some (really incredible) prizes: colored pencils, watercolor sets, sketchbooks, artwork, a Skillshare Premium membership, 1-on-1 creative coaching calls... The rules are very simple: 1. Repos...
The Power of Ugly Art ✨ Creativity Exercise for Dealing with Your Inner Critic in Your Sketchbook
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I currently have a 7 day free trial to join my Moonmoss Club, with monthly art classes, live sessions & sketchbook tours: patreon.com/marienoellewurm hiya and thanks so much for watching, and hopefully, joining in!! :D This is a little set of two exercises to help you feel loose and free, and a little less 'constrained' by all the terrible things your inner critic says when you try to open up y...
Procreate Dreams Animation & Illustration: Explore the Art of Movement on Skillshare - Intro
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Join the class (and get 1 free month of Skillshare if you're a new member): skl.sh/3TAHbFF I'm so so excited to let you know that my class "Procreate Dreams Animation & Illustration: Explore the Art of Movement" is finally out!! :) :) I actually sneakily published it last Friday and I'm over the moon to say that it also already got a Staff Pick 😭❤️. In this class I share with you my newfound lo...
Art Composition Fundamentals: Exploring Value Contrast, Shape, & Balance in Procreate or Pen & Ink
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You can join the class here on Skillshare: skl.sh/47Yp9Be Or for the first time ever, as a one-time purchase on my website: marienoellewurm.gumroad.com/l/artcompositionnotan It’s here!! FINALLY. My newest class, all about a subject I’m super passionate about but never touched on in depth on Skillshare (though I do on Patreon!) and that is: COMPOSITION. Do you ever get confused about how to get ...
Ask-me-Anything #1 | Art blocks, art for healing, the "artist" label, making a living from your art!
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I made this in August 2022 for my lovely patrons ( patreon.com/marienoellewurm )and decided to share it with you publicly today! Join my Patreon for more videos like these, a chance to ask me your own specific questions, as well as live drawing sessions and sketchbook tours. Thanks to my patrons for your really fascinating questions and insights and to those who joined live! If you feel like sh...
Creativity exercises to prep for the 'Forest of Quiet Magic' live session on Saturday 4th ✨
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The replay of the session which these exercises were 'prepping for' is now up and accessible to any tier of my Patreon! www.patreon.com/posts/92097106 www.patreon.com/marienoellewurm Or if you want to join any of my skillshare classes (there's 1 free month for first-time members included in the link): skl.sh/marienoellewurm Links to our Instagrams: marienoellewurm be...
Sketchbook Tour #19 | Vintage Flowers Sketchbook - Part 2
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To hear about the process behind this sketchbook: www.patreon.com/posts/in-depth-tour-19-88255804 and to get more in-depth sketchbook tours, live drawing sessions & art classes: www.patreon.com/marienoellewurm In the in-depth video (first link), I chat you through: - exploring warmth/coolness in the shadow/light - simplifying shapes, contrast between geometric and organic shapes - the importanc...
Sketchbook Tour #18 | Bright Blue Pith | May-June 2021
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I deep-dive into the process behind this sketchbook here: www.patreon.com/posts/in-depth-tour-18-86442728 A few things I talk about there: -a two-color favorite watercolor combo: Holbein's Shadow Green & Burnt Sienna and the 'neon' Holbein colored pencil Luminous opera (and how fun neon colors can be!!). Shadow Green: bit.ly/holbeinshadowgreen Burnt Sienna: bit.ly/holbeinburntsienna Luminous op...
#myarttipisdrawtoday - a #sketchbookchallenge for you today #shorts
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Let me know how it went!
Draw Along With Me: The Value of Value | Moonmoss Club Live Drawing Session | Jan 2022
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Draw Along With Me: The Value of Value | Moonmoss Club Live Drawing Session | Jan 2022
Sketchbook Creativity: Cultivate Freedom & Find Your Drawing Style Intro [French with English Subs]
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Sketchbook Creativity: Cultivate Freedom & Find Your Drawing Style Intro [French with English Subs]
A question for you about my next art classes! What do you want to learn?
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A question for you about my next art classes! What do you want to learn?
Draw with me ✨ Live Art Cafe Replay: Drawing plants, cabins & the 3materialsdrawingchallenge
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Draw with me ✨ Live Art Cafe Replay: Drawing plants, cabins & the 3materialsdrawingchallenge
Sketchbook Tour #17 | Grey Pith | April-May2021
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Sketchbook Tour #17 | Grey Pith | April-May2021
Paint along with me ✨Unboxing Caran D'ache Neopastels set of 48
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Paint along with me ✨Unboxing Caran D'ache Neopastels set of 48
Sketchbook Tour #16 | Vintage Flowers Sketchbook - Part 1
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Sketchbook Tour #16 | Vintage Flowers Sketchbook - Part 1
None of us asked to be born-witnessing unfolding ✨
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None of us asked to be born-witnessing unfolding ✨
Art Challenge #1 | Reconnect with Your Sketchbook - Letting Go
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Art Challenge #1 | Reconnect with Your Sketchbook - Letting Go
Art inspiration from my bookshelf: Drawing for Illustration by Martin Salisbury
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Art inspiration from my bookshelf: Drawing for Illustration by Martin Salisbury
Mindful Doodling & Creative Color - Intro
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Mindful Doodling & Creative Color - Intro
Paint along with me ✨Unboxing oil pastels, soft pastels + neocolor
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Paint along with me ✨Unboxing oil pastels, soft pastels neocolor
Paint along with me ✨ Unboxing + swatching Holbein Irodori Winter gouache set + Acryla Gouache
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Paint along with me ✨ Unboxing swatching Holbein Irodori Winter gouache set Acryla Gouache
CPTSD & My Journey Towards Integration-part3, Jul 2020 *TRIGGER WARNING* (trauma, suicidal thoughts)
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CPTSD & My Journey Towards Integration-part3, Jul 2020 *TRIGGER WARNING* (trauma, suicidal thoughts)
True talk part 1: My breakdown & what I'm learning (+ some Swiss cows with bells) - June 2019
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True talk part 1: My breakdown & what I'm learning ( some Swiss cows with bells) - June 2019
Paint along with me ✨ Unboxing + swatching Luminance colored pencils & Sennelier soft pastels
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Paint along with me ✨ Unboxing swatching Luminance colored pencils & Sennelier soft pastels
improvising with your paint is a thing ✨
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improvising with your paint is a thing ✨

КОМЕНТАРІ

  • @TheNappyHour
    @TheNappyHour 2 дні тому

    Thank you for that video. I am not an artist but I am creative and what you explained in the video makes so much sense in everyday life. We all have inner expectations that enable us to do what we want in life, to follow our path or to express ourselves... It was really therapeutic.

  • @figmentsofinfatuation_
    @figmentsofinfatuation_ 2 дні тому

    I needed this

  • @hollyahner2137
    @hollyahner2137 4 дні тому

    On the prompt about art representing what you are capable of I saw a spiral moving from the perimeter inward and in the middle I saw you as a child holing the heart of your art.

  • @hollyahner2137
    @hollyahner2137 4 дні тому

    In second exercise, as you were writing, I was getting the imago of a box and I wanted to help you find your way outside of the box!

  • @Parianparlay
    @Parianparlay 5 днів тому

    Really liked watching you draw, I just wanted to say that your films have really inspired me to get out my stuff and start creating again, after a lot of years. Must be about ten years since I did anything last. Thank you so much! 😘💕

    • @marienoellewurm
      @marienoellewurm 3 дні тому

      oh that makes me SO happy to hear. Yay you for taking the invitation and jumping back in to the art world :) wishing you all the best!

  • @zielona_f
    @zielona_f 5 днів тому

    i tried so many draw-along-with-mes and yours is both, educational while not overwhelming! the only way i am actually inspired to doodle too and not smacked with the brick of theory and perfectionism.

    • @marienoellewurm
      @marienoellewurm 5 днів тому

      aw that's so wonderful to hear :) :) really glad it helps!

  • @anapaulaotero-illustration875
    @anapaulaotero-illustration875 5 днів тому

    Love the way you play with color❤❤❤ Please check out my art channel as well. Hope you like it! ❤ Greetings from Portugal!

  • @AshesChild
    @AshesChild 5 днів тому

    Very relaxing and liberating. Thank you!

  • @sheilagilleland4312
    @sheilagilleland4312 5 днів тому

    Seriously, there’s something about scribbling in a page of my art journal that’s so freeing!

  • @sheilagilleland4312
    @sheilagilleland4312 5 днів тому

    Oh my sketch book! I can replace the sketch book, the actual lesson I learn is invaluable! 🙌🏻 I actually make ugly art most days😵‍💫😳

  • @taketimetoseait396
    @taketimetoseait396 6 днів тому

    Hearing music is good, B nice 2 change it up thru out.😊

  • @Indrid_cold777
    @Indrid_cold777 6 днів тому

    Bien! New video! Gracias! ❤❤❤

  • @mikartmilo
    @mikartmilo 6 днів тому

    I love to paint and draw along with your videos, I like to listen to your voice and just chill 👏🏻 ❤hi from England 👍🏻👌🏻👏🏻

    • @marienoellewurm
      @marienoellewurm 6 днів тому

      aw yay glad to hear it!! :) hope you had a good painting session!

  • @catherinesheffield1175
    @catherinesheffield1175 7 днів тому

    Love the voice, cadence and sentiment but a bit esoteric .

    • @marienoellewurm
      @marienoellewurm 6 днів тому

      I'm not sure what you mean by esoteric? but otherwise thank you! :)

  • @lifeisdoingwhatsme
    @lifeisdoingwhatsme 7 днів тому

    whats the brand of your color pencils? I love how strong the colours are!!!

    • @marienoellewurm
      @marienoellewurm 7 днів тому

      they're Luminance by Caran d'Ache! Definite faves :)

  • @MetalxMonica
    @MetalxMonica 8 днів тому

    My cat loved watching you draw these lines and listening to the hard scribbling sounds - She was CAPTIVATED by this so called "ugly art". You never know who your art will resonate with! Lol. Such a freeing excercise! Thanks for this!

    • @marienoellewurm
      @marienoellewurm 6 днів тому

      Haha this is the best thing ever. If I entertained a cat, my life purpose is accomplished. 😂😂 thanks for sharing Monica!

  • @CarissaMarksThomson
    @CarissaMarksThomson 11 днів тому

    this was just what i needed today, i stumbled across you as my art was feeling stuck in my head and my hands, thank you

    • @marienoellewurm
      @marienoellewurm 6 днів тому

      oh I'm so glad it helped Carissa. All the best to you! :)

  • @nickvogel
    @nickvogel 12 днів тому

    "brutally ugly" I honestly thought it was a quite beautiful expression of color =) edit: You should see my paintings...but I don't post anywhere anymore

  • @muireannin09
    @muireannin09 13 днів тому

    Wow - never experienced any tutorial like this. Thank you. I’m going to lean in❣️

    • @marienoellewurm
      @marienoellewurm 6 днів тому

      ooo yay so glad you enjoyed it!! :) and yes, let me know how it went!

  • @SimonaCappentine
    @SimonaCappentine 13 днів тому

    Good artists must recognize bad art. I agree that shame is a sham.

  • @mickrozycki451
    @mickrozycki451 13 днів тому

    I scribble. It's a gateway to the subconscious.

  • @elizabethbarnes3969
    @elizabethbarnes3969 14 днів тому

    Thank you for a great video!! So helpful. 🙏

    • @marienoellewurm
      @marienoellewurm 6 днів тому

      aw I'm so glad Elizabeth. :) hope you have a lovely day!

  • @PeachiPixie
    @PeachiPixie 14 днів тому

    No because I struggle with this exact thing. Sometimes I fear sketching or ‘creating’ in general, as I’m always expecting perfection. But as a human, we’re all faulty, and knowing that I might make something ‘ugly’ or a mistake, makes me often scared to even create in the first place. As a result I sometimes don’t. This video was very helpful to learn how to let go, to just, not think so much. I think every artist should learn from this!

  • @mnztmnzt
    @mnztmnzt 14 днів тому

    💐This gave me a huge courage to start any time. I always prepare my mind, my table etc for several days before start. Your session is encouraging. Also i can paint with my little son without he is telling me how i am good at painting and he doesn't need to draw himself. 🤭

  • @alexhawkhead
    @alexhawkhead 14 днів тому

    "Making something ugly is everyone's worst fear. What if, instead of running away from it, we lean into it?" thank you for this video and this exercise, the stuff it brought up for me absolutely needs to be addressed with some angry scribbles, I will definitely be trying this! Love it!

  • @judycowan1566
    @judycowan1566 19 днів тому

    the first one, even though it was ugly, it looked better before you smudged it all out into nothing… you have to know when to stop, (which is my problem too)

    • @marienoellewurm
      @marienoellewurm 6 днів тому

      I was aiming for the most ugly thing possible so I'm glad you agree that it looked horrendous when I smudged it all! :D

  • @kristincalhoun9444
    @kristincalhoun9444 19 днів тому

    this is so helpful. Thank you!!

  • @OlaBelle
    @OlaBelle 19 днів тому

    Love this idea! It feels so relaxing watching this video, thx so much!

    • @marienoellewurm
      @marienoellewurm 6 днів тому

      aw I'm glad to hear that... you should try to DO it too, it's also very fun and relaxing! :D

  • @eloise459
    @eloise459 19 днів тому

    Thank you soo much for making this video. During this half hour, i only did the first part scrabble and i just that the vid kept playing. While listening to your voice and drawing those things, i felt peaceful and i can deeply felt and listened the voice in my mind. It’s really been a long time i took the color pencils again and drew like a child, feeling the color mixing together with others. ( sorry, english is not my first language, i tried my best to express my feelings) thank you again. Thanks god that i found this amazing video.

    • @marienoellewurm
      @marienoellewurm 6 днів тому

      oh I'm so so glad you enjoyed it and found peace in it too. :) Sending love your way!

  • @AysieElf
    @AysieElf 20 днів тому

    🩵

    • @marienoellewurm
      @marienoellewurm 6 днів тому

      so glad you liked it. An oldie but always a fave :)

  • @tania.creates
    @tania.creates 20 днів тому

    thank you for sharing this, i am in the midst of a similar situation and what has helped me through some of the rougher moments has been your art prompt videos, letting my brain focus on something else besides the endless anxiety and ending up making a tiny piece of art, like the stitched cherries 🍒 so again, thank you - finding you and your channel at this time has been an unexpected gift

  • @MariaJoseRozas
    @MariaJoseRozas 21 день тому

    Thank you so much for this. Since I started studying, I felt too bound to rationality to complete any drawing. It's nice to not be expected to have Complete Thoughts materializing into art. There was a knot in my throat, as far as bodily sensations go. This exercise relieved it. ❤

  • @aneeladar
    @aneeladar 22 дні тому

    this was the best video ever ! i had so much fun !!!!

  • @leon_levin_
    @leon_levin_ 23 дні тому

    Thanks a lot for this video! 🙏 I really love to watch your videos when I feel stuck and scared of bringing the pen to the paper ❤

    • @marienoellewurm
      @marienoellewurm 6 днів тому

      aw that makes me SO happy to hear. :) Keep it up Leon!

  • @majoyelpez
    @majoyelpez 23 дні тому

    Hi! I'm Venezuelan artist on constantly learning, with the intention to bring to my art and my self a beautiful growth throught the qualities of exploration. In the moment when I write this comment, my country is crossing a hard situation of injusticies, claiming exhaustively for a freedom, and leave us with an exhausting soul energy. I've appealing for creation and the power of my art, and this has saved me, also watching your videos and listening your paceful advices gives to me a lot of inspiration and helps me to get away out, for a little moment, of these loops. My truly warming thanks to you, for sharing the love and passion for art, that reminds me everytime that I create or see my contemporaries creating, the art is the most beautifly, honest and powerful answer to every situation in the world and the most honest way to find freedom. Your videos brings me a kind of scape to reconnected to my art, myself, and gives me these flame to keep creating. A reminder for never stop to do it. A huge hug for you🧡

  • @annmcrae6224
    @annmcrae6224 23 дні тому

    Lovely, courageous, humble you. What a gift this video is. I can hear and see and feel that giving is your nature. The beauty of that is that it takes no special effort on your part. Be you and it will be the highest and best gift you could give to anyone. And it will be enough. xoxo

    • @marienoellewurm
      @marienoellewurm 6 днів тому

      oh thank you so much for your kindness Ann. :) much love to you!

  • @deelynn8611
    @deelynn8611 23 дні тому

    To make a painting and not think about it or judge would be very difficult.mostly because to make art with no thought, you would have to be extremely sure of your skills. I am not at all sure and am still learning, so much of the time it's not fun, its really hard to paint without trying to use what info you have learned so far.

    • @marienoellewurm
      @marienoellewurm 6 днів тому

      this is exactly why I made this video :) I hope the exercise helps a bit. It's really about practicing learning how to accept all the ugly art that WILL happen as you learn :)

    • @deelynn8611
      @deelynn8611 6 днів тому

      @@marienoellewurm ha ha, love it. It's a humbling experience for a perfectionist!

  • @BexSanderzon
    @BexSanderzon 24 дні тому

    I just enjoyed scribbling like my two year old until there was basically no empty space 😅and then I doodled a cubed mug a face and other random objects.. thank you for posting and being here Marie - which is my daughters 2nd middle name ❤

    • @marienoellewurm
      @marienoellewurm 6 днів тому

      haha I looove that! yes to no empty space :) :) keep having fun and thanks for sharing!

  • @louisakearney9517
    @louisakearney9517 27 днів тому

    I’ve just discovered your videos and I’m enjoying them! You mention a cozy art cafe and I was wondering how to access that. Thanks much.

    • @marienoellewurm
      @marienoellewurm 25 днів тому

      Hi and thanks so much Louisa! The cozy art cafe is part of my Patreon membership, which you can check out directly at www.patreon.com/marienoellewurm I have three levels of tiers with different perks for each one, but you can access the cozy art cafe Discord server at all tiers, even the lowest one. Would be lovely to see you there! :)

  • @user-qz8kj8jf9t
    @user-qz8kj8jf9t 28 днів тому

    뭐라고 써야할지도 모를 노트에 당장 실천 해봤는데, 정말 오랜만에 진짜 자유를 느낀것 같아요! 정말 고마워요. 손이 멈추질 않네요~😊

  • @prettyinpink2102
    @prettyinpink2102 28 днів тому

    Thank you so much much for this video , it really helped

  • @visionvixxen
    @visionvixxen 28 днів тому

    CPTSD because of my ADD and Autism. The second undiagnosed until recently at 50… this was is really complex because are people deliberately abusing you or is it happening by nature of your neurotype not fitting the world and being repeatedly misunderstood.

    • @marienoellewurm
      @marienoellewurm 6 днів тому

      yes it's very tough! Sending a lot of courage and healing thoughts your way!

  • @XavierBarzola-n6b
    @XavierBarzola-n6b 28 днів тому

    Can’t wait to try it ❗️

    • @marienoellewurm
      @marienoellewurm 6 днів тому

      ooo let me know when you do, I"m curious how it goes for you!

  • @ARTOCÉANART
    @ARTOCÉANART 29 днів тому

    I think it"s beautiful :)

  • @MehediHasan-zk9yd
    @MehediHasan-zk9yd 29 днів тому

    Thank you so much. It was really what I needed at this moment.

  • @MehediHasan-zk9yd
    @MehediHasan-zk9yd 29 днів тому

    Thank you so much. It was really what I needed at this moment.

  • @tibbietibbs2592
    @tibbietibbs2592 Місяць тому

    Thank you for this video. I love your channel!

    • @marienoellewurm
      @marienoellewurm 6 днів тому

      aw thanks so much, I"m super honored! I haven't been posting much but I plan to post a little bit more regularly in coming months!

  • @carmenireneperez8680
    @carmenireneperez8680 Місяць тому

    i fucking loved it, it made me feel so FREE

    • @marienoellewurm
      @marienoellewurm 6 днів тому

      hihi yesssss so glad you felt it too. :) Keep it up!

  • @arrivingtobigsur
    @arrivingtobigsur Місяць тому

    I’m watching this and I’m already relaxed

    • @marienoellewurm
      @marienoellewurm 6 днів тому

      aww yay that's awesome. :) Have you tried it? I"m so curious to see how it goes for you. :)

    • @arrivingtobigsur
      @arrivingtobigsur 6 днів тому

      @@marienoellewurm yes, I’ve tried! And this worked great. Using this method I made some abstractions from my inner child and I really love them 😌🙏🏻

    • @marienoellewurm
      @marienoellewurm 5 днів тому

      @@arrivingtobigsur aw amazing gald to hear it :)

  • @morganniciomhair8284
    @morganniciomhair8284 Місяць тому

    DEAR ONE I WATCHED YOUR UGLY ART VID,SUBSCRIBED,THEN WENT LOOKING FOR YOU.I MENTIONED I WAS IN AN ACCIDENT THAT LEFT ME LEGALLY BLIND AND A BRAIN INJURY AMONGST MANY OTHER PERMANANT INJURIES.FOR ME THE ISOLATION IS TOO HARD.SO IM SO GLAD TO HEAR YOU HAVE GOOD LOYAL KIND PEOPLE AROUND YOU.THANK YOU FOR BEING BRAVE AND HONEST.THERES SO MUCH STIGMA AND CRUELTY,WHEN KINDNESS IS OFTEN WHAT IS NEEDED.I KNOW IT SOUNDS CLICHED,BUT HAVE YOU YHOUGHT ABOUT WRITING 5 THINGS YOU WERE GRATEFULL FOR THAT DAY.SOMETIMES FOR ME IT WAS MY BREATH,I HAVE WATER TO DRINK,I HAVE A HOT WATER BOTTLE AND SHELTER.IF YOU CAN MAKE IT A HABIT I TRULY BELIEVE IT IS A HEALING THING.I AM SO SORRY YOU ARE SUFFERING.I HOPE LIFE IS GETTING BETTER FOR YOU.YOUR LIGHT SHINES THROUGH THE SCREEN.FOR THOSE OF US WHO WERE HURT WHEN WE WERE LITTLE CHILDREN,IT IS VERY HARD.I HOPE YOU CONTINUE WITH YOUR ART,AS I BELIEVE,WHEN YOU CAN DO IT,IT ALSO HEALS.PLEASE DONT PUT PRESSURE ON YOURSELF TO MAKE VIDEOS,WAIT,BE KIND TO YOURSELF,THAT IS MOST IMPORTANT.